Been up since 3:30 and can't seem to find a way to go back to sleep. There has been a lot of stress and work to deal with on top of everything, however, sleep seemed to be the only thing I could look forward to with any certainty. Though today was different, no matter how much I tried to fall back to sleep my mind was racing thinking about the days ahead and all the work that followed along with it. As I wander the darkness trying to figure out why I couldn't sleep I realized that I am not my own.

“Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.” (1 Corinthians 6:19-20 ESV)

Despite to do what we want and what is ultimately best for use, when we are called into Christ we are no longer looking out merely for ourselves. God will protect and care for us without question, but He calls us to minister and care for others above ourselves. We are to sacrifice our time, energy, and oftentimes sleep for those who need us. This lesson has been something that I have been forgetting lately and need to hold true in my own heart as I serve my Lord.

So even in my lack of sleep and in my stress I will glorify Him with everything that I am and more. He deserves the very best of me. Even when I'm falling apart at the seams, He draws me closer to Himself for support so that I can give more to everyone around me out of inadequacy. Out of my failure His strength is shown. Out of my sleeplessness His ever lasting energy is displayed for all to sleep. A good place to start this day, even if it was earlier than expected.