I tend to joke that I live dangerously and edit code on a production environment because that is how web developers live dangerously. Tonight was a different story when a few co-workers and myself had to stay at work late in order to fix a small glitch that basically erupted into a major problem.
During the incident and in the heat of battle with malfunctioning code one of my co-workers pulled out his phone and said that I was starting to remind him of a scene from "Star Trek First Contact." I chuckled back at him and said, "Which scene?" After a few minutes he found the video on YouTube and started playing it for everyone. It was a great laugh because for the last week I have been evangelizing (ranting) about a framework that needed to be removed from our system and was causing us more headache than help at this point. Funny enough this is the same framework that caused us to all have to stay late tonight fixing the issue. Thankfully after a few hours we got the issue resolved and everything was fixed, but that scene from the movie stuck in my head.
This Far And No Further
It's amazing how much we don't see what we are doing with our words and actions, but others see it and for myself it was a genuine shock to know that I have been getting angry over trivial issues like the one tonight. I don't like being angry or losing my temper because I am usually the person who can remain calm and throw jokes during stressful situations. Lately, that has not be the case. I find myself reaching that boiling point more often and faster than at any other point in my life. Chalk it up to getting older, being dissatisfied in my work, or just plain not getting enough sleep during the week. Whatever it may be it is something that I "seriously" need to change and I put that in quotes for those of you not paying attention.
My actions should adhere to the actions my Father in Heaven has placed before me and not let the situations of this world be my measuring stick of when I am allowed to be angry. James says it the best when he talks about being slow to anger and tells us that we don't produce the righteousness when we are quick to anger. Our actions are a direct reflection of Him and if we are the ones constantly going off the handle how does that make God look when others know we are Christians.
Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God. Therefore put away all filthiness and rampant wickedness and receive with meekness the implanted word, which is able to save your souls. But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks intently at his natural face in a mirror. For he looks at himself and goes away and at once forgets what he was like. But the one who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer who forgets but a doer who acts, he will be blessed in his doing. James 1:19-25
They will know us by our actions and our words. They will love Him because they see Jesus flowing from us into a darkened world.